Andre called about half an hour after i wrote that entry. He's ok, he got to Texas about an hour and a half after he was supposed to. He said " i love you and i miss you" in such a way that i knew that he was really sad. But i don't know what he is doing and i can't see his face and it just really sucks. I want to him to be happy because he's getting to see his friends that he hasn't seen for 4 years, but at the same time i just want him here. He has to do the Eulogy tommorow. He's pretty nervous about that. He said going down there was bittersweet, everyone is so happy to see him but at the same time they lost a really good friend.

I have to get ready for work and for the first time i want to go so that i don't have to count the minutes til he comes back. Have you ever seen me so sappy? I tried talking to Nina because her husband leaves alot. She's pregnant and stuff so when i talk about myself it doesn't really seem like she's listening and turns the subject to herself (again). I don't think that she realizes that she does this but she does. I know she's excited but after every other friend decided that they don't want hear about my happiness or sadness because of whatever reason, i thought i could turn to her and well that's pretty much shot to hell right now. So i called my cousin Dee Dee whom i've grown really close to over the last month and she listened, she makes me laugh alot. I'm glad i have somebody to listen to me whine and she's glad to have the same thing.

Anyway, i have to get ready for work. Hopefully he'll call me there or leave a message here. If not i know that he is thinking about me (he better call though if he knows what's good for him).