Ok, i'm sure you can tell by that last entry what happened. Out of maybe the 100 people that are supporting me right now (thanks all of you)1 or 2 said that i should actually leave, the rest said that my relationship is worth working out. I could kill people right now, but it's not going to solve or change anything.

My place is a mess, i haven't been to work and i've lost 8 pounds since tuesday, probably more than that. I feel like i'm living in the world through someone else's eyes and looking at a completely different person. I just want Andre back, the Andre that i had before all this went down, instead i have a selfish man, a liar nothing like really like the man that i have known for the last 3 years and it hurts. I don't know what to do, i beat the shit out of him when he told me everything. I know that he is sorry and that he has no right to be upset or angry because the whole thing is his fault. I can't believe that this is happening, i'm also finding out who my real friends are..the ones that actually care about me or helping me through this.

It's sad when the world kicks the chair out from under you when you're not looking, and even worse when you didn't do anything to deserve it, when you're just minding your own damn business.